I know I haven't been posting alot lately. I am so busy and am running in 30 directions at once. Often I think about just giving up the blog but then I change my mind when something important is happening. Today is one of those days.
I started out happy this morning since today is my DH's birthday. We had a nice dinner out together last night to celebrate. We are having a quiet family celebration tonight with my DS & DD. Probably Pizza and wings and then watch the RAYS (or CSI Vegas).
His birthday reminded me that I am still smarting from something that happened (or actually didn't happen) on my birthday in August.
I was upset that someone I used to consider a friend has been upset with me for 3 years and I really don't know why. Actually, I think I know why, but that just makes it crazier. What I think she is upset about wasn't done to her . She and her friends have done things I consider much more inappropriate but she doesn't seem to care. She allows other people to do things but when I ask to do the same thing, I get told no. For some reason that really bothered me this morning.
I was upset that I seem to always get the short end of the stick or learn about something that could make me a little money and the bottom drops out before I can cash in.
I am concerned because it looks like I will have to have a re-tweeking of my Lasik surgery. Having been though it three times should make it old hat. Unfortunately, I just freak out and think maybe my luck will run out and I'll end up worse than I am. One of my biggest fears is blindness. I would hate not being able to see the people I love.
I was all prepared to have a big old Pity party tomorrow (so as not to ruin my DH's birthday) and then I read this.
I quickly snapped back into reality and gave myself a swift talking to. I'm still upset by all the things I mentioned and about a hundred other things I didn't...the election/401K's/food prices/Christmas....etc...but, I am loved by and married to my HS sweetheart...I am healthy considering the crap I eat and my lack of exercise...I have friends I can depend on...I have 2 kids that love me and 2 step kids that I'm getting closer to..things are Good over all.
Please pray for Tricia and her family if that is your belief. Please pray for anyone else that is battling an illness or homelessness or despair. Be thankful for what you do have and if I start whining again..please kick me in my ample rear.